Posted by antigua on August 21, 2006, at 9:22:00
In reply to Re: Confused and update on hypnotist, posted by Estella on August 19, 2006, at 22:13:27
> Hey. I'm sorry if I've been unsupportive of your decision.
I didn't think you were being unsupportive. I thought you were truly interested!
> Your dream is interesting...
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> What struck me most about it was that you wanted your t to help you understand some things that you have amnesia for. You were worried you might have done something bad... And you want your t to help you remember.
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> > At this point, I discover that yes, I have done something terribly wrong during my amnesia
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> How did you discover this? Did you 'remember'?No, I just felt it in my dream. The idea was that the person I turned to for help was unavailable, so I turned the bad stuff on myself. I know as a mother that if my child came to me with something where their perception was wrong, I would change it, make him or her see more clearly. since I had no one to do that, I internalized it instead. It was just a remembrance in a dream.
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> And the upshot is:
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> > I'm just so overwhelmed with disgust and hate for myself
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> So you don't remember some stuff but you suspect stuff happened (and that is why you don't remember). You are worried that you might 'remember' stuff that somehow shows you to be to blame or you to be at fault. But the way the theory goes it is more likely that someone has done some stuff to you. And that if you can 'remember' someone doing stuff to you then you will come to see that you aren't to blame and then you will be cured.
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> I still worry that... Memory doesn't really work that way.
It's not necessarily memory. Intellectually, I know that I'm not at fault, but emotionally I am still carrying a burden.> I worry that you think your therapist can help you 'remember'. I worry about this theory that seems to construe memory as locating bits of veridical information that have been stashed away somewhere in the brain.
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> Most people don't remember everything...
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> But some people worry more about the memory gaps while others aren't really aware that they have memory gaps.
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> I guess in a way I think the real question is...
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> Do you think your t can help you remember?
> Do you think that what you remember will be veridical?
> Is there any way you could find out whether it is veridical or not?What does veridical mean? Sorry, I'm an oaf (even a writer!)
> Why do you think it is so important to remember?
Because something is blocking me from getting fully better.
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> What are you afraid of?
That's the million dollar question. I don't know.
> Maybe... You could deal with those issues without engaging in a process that is notorious for the development of false memories.I'm not looking at them as memories, per se, but to provide something to provide insight. What you suggest above, that's what I've been doing for 16 years.
antigua
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