Posted by Tamar on January 20, 2006, at 19:58:03
In reply to hospital don't know where to post *trigger*, posted by James K on January 20, 2006, at 16:46:31
Sorry it’s hard right now. It does sound confusing.
I wondered about how your ideas about self injury relate to your inclination to inflict violence on other people…? I know I find the same feelings trigger both kinds of thoughts… and I came to the conclusion that I would rather injure myself than other people. But that’s just me.
The wish to hurt others or ourselves is very complex and difficult. And getting drunk is actually just another way of hurting yourself. I don’t think it will help you to make a decision about what to do.
I think you’re doing some really good work… I noticed that you said you wanted to do the right thing, and I know it’s because you’re a good person. You said you were ‘too honest’ but I think beginning to be honest always feels ‘too honest’. That’s why it feels as if it’s out of the blue. Honesty is really hard. It’s one of the hardest things, because we have to face things about ourselves and our pasts that we don’t want to deal with. But facing the sh*t and coming out the other side can make you realise how strong you really are.
Good luck.
Tamar
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