Posted by annierose on January 20, 2006, at 15:22:12
This is just an update to my earlier thread re: my angst over scheduling snafus w/my T. It took 3 sessions, but I'm finally at peace again.
We both made assumptions on what the other person was saying (or not saying). Clearly my T felt offended that I accused her of "bumping me" in favor of another client. She now understands I did feel that happened, but she has assured me that next time she will be more careful with the words she uses when there is a scheduling conflict.
We talked a lot about anger, and what it brings up for me. Then she suggested that I try to meditate. I wanted to laugh. I don't think that it is possible for me to stay still and quiet for any reasonable length of time. But I will look into it. Her reasoning is that the pain and hurt I feel is so overwhelming for me and my psyche, that it gets streamed into anger ... in order not to feel the disappointment. I feel the pain is there, but just out of reach. And I figure, why try to access it anyway ... to feel worse?
We talked about that too.
Oh and she did secure my Tuesday appointment time, so I don't have to change that one too.
I hope there aren't too many more weeks like this one ahead. I can only take on so much. It's amazing how this stupid little incident impacted me on so many levels.
Thanks to everyone that offered such insightful and helpful advice ... you know who you are!
poster:annierose
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