Posted by Annierose on October 23, 2005, at 7:27:57
In reply to Re: My therapist hurt my feelings » Poet, posted by daisym on October 22, 2005, at 19:13:31
This post resonated with me as well. My daughter and I were having a conversation last night about babies. We were snuggling at bedtime and I said, "I imagine when you are an adult, you may become a pediatrician because you are so natural with babies and toddlers." She looked puzzled, "Mom, all people like babies. Who wouldn't want to hold one?" "Well, I'm not too comfortable with babies." "Oh, mom seriously, of course you are, look at me, you loved me as a baby. And my brother."
After I left her room, I couldn't stop thinking about this seemingly innocent conversation. Your words about mourning your innocence struck me. For me, it's maybe more of giving somebody something I wasn't given myself. I'm not sure how to do it. There's no frame of reference in my psyche, so I have to create it.
(((( Dasiy )))) I think 10der was right. Maybe it's a part of the healing. You recognize that hole inside your heart and that is so sad.
Mom stuff is so hard. Dad stuff is hard too. Heck, it's all so painful. But I'm so happy that now I have a glimpse of what an emotional secure mom gives her children. I keep thinking the attachment, dependency, the love I get from my therapist, must be the type of love my children feel for me ... if I'm doing it right. (Awkward thought + sentence).
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