Posted by fairywings on October 21, 2005, at 8:50:33
In reply to Re: Anybody else have very *trigger*, posted by Damos on October 20, 2005, at 21:59:21
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> In all honesty I just don't know how to answer you. I really worry about just blurting out my stuff any old way because what's been okay for me could be completely wrong and even risky for someone dealing with different stuff.Hi Damos, well you don't have to worry about blurting with me! ; ) I can usually look at someone else's experience and separate. For me it helps so much to hear what other ppl are going through and see how they deal with it. So much doesn't occur to me, and so many times lightbulbs go on when I read here.
>>What I have done is work with some alternate therapists (energetic healers), because I just didn't feel right, like storing all this stuff was creating actual blockages in me and my personal energy was kind of low and all over the place. And for whatever reason I just found that I could also just talk to these people.
I find that really interesting Damos, what kind of therapies have you done? I've done trigger point massage, and been to an alt. doctor, but that's it. No bodyworks.
> be honest with other people about what I'm feeling.Sometimes being honest is the hardest part, makes me really look at the things I know I'm doing wrong but keep doing for some reason, usually to avoid stress.
>>What came up? The biggest one by far was all the stuff related to a miscarriage that I'd just never let myself feel. Once I got through all the hurt there was guilt and shame by the bucket full. It came out in a couple of ways. First I wrote a letter to her on 'Write' around the anniversary of her loss, and then a little while later I was triggered off in a big way by another post. Tears, tears, and more tears, the sensation of not being able to breathe and that my heart was being torn in two. How did I deal with? I ran from my desk, down in the lift and out into the park across the road and stayed there crying my eyes out for a few hours. Afterward I was exhausted and embarrassed but felt better in so many ways and I actually felt physically lighter.
I'm so sorry you went through all of this (((((Damos)))))). It's so incredibly painful. I'm glad you felt lighter after you wrote and then were able to cry. Do you think your depression is tied up in the miscarriage?>
> Fairywings, it seems to me that he invalidated the fact that you were invalidated by your parents, and that's gotta hurt big time.What you said does help Damos, thank you. As far as being invalidated, I saw my T last night, and I misinterpreted his intentions. I'll post on it in a bit.
Thanks for your post.
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