Posted by Jazzed on July 5, 2005, at 23:31:43
Okay, here's the deal. I know how you all think I should have dropped my T like a hot rock after the first session, but you know I'm so freaking bull headed, I felt like I had to make this work! Don't want to find a new T. Blah, blah, blah. Well tonight, this was the 4th session, I didn't really feel too much like my T knows me any better than he did after the 2nd session. He doesn't seem to remember stuff. I know I need to ask him if he takes notes. AND, here's the cincher....he took a phone call at the end of our session! Yes, I know you'll all say get out of there! BUT, I don't want to, I want to make this work, I want to try to stick it out and see if he can help me. Yes, I'm hurt, we were talking about some serious stuff, and I want to excuse the inexcusable. I can't even believe the staff knocked on his door during a session to tell him he had a call! They are NOT allowed to do this with my p-doc, so I don't know why they will do it with him. I guess every T sets his own policies. The call was brief, but still....
I just really wanted to vent because I'm hurt. I had a lot of anxiety going into this session, and felt a bit deflated afterwards and now. I don't want to find a new T. I guess I just wanted to cry on someone's shoulder. I don't really want to say anything to him either, I'm not sure I could. But I will tell him that I don't feel like he's gotten to know me any better, and that hurts. I have to go see my son's T tomorrow. Maybe I should leave him a note telling him that I feel like he's not getting to know me? or something like that? I want that connection, I like him, he's nice, but I don't feel like he's taking notes, or remembering from one session to the next. I don't know......
Jazzy
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thread:524072
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