Posted by Shortelise on April 5, 2005, at 20:02:38
In reply to Re: Mourning » Shortelise, posted by pinkeye on April 5, 2005, at 18:45:35
Wow, Pinkeye, you really pushed my buttons here - it's so strange. Yikes. And don't worry - thisis NOT about you - it's about me!
That you say that from his perspective it's "just" a professional relationship bugs me. It's a relationship that's so complicated, and part of the deal is that he care about me and continue to be there should I need him. I don't doubt that. I just don't really neeed him much anymore, darn it all.
The idea that I could ever be a nuisance to him bugs me. I feel that our relationship is in part his creation. But that I would embarass myself, I find the idea humilitaing, and the suggestion that I might do so really kind of gets me.
It makes me sad that my sense of humour doesn't show here. There is nothing, but nothing I do more than laugh. Even in the depth of the worst caca, I find some hideous black sense of humour to go with the circumstances.
I have to say I find it interesting how strongly I reacted to your posts. THanks for writing!
ShortE
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