Posted by shrinking violet on April 5, 2005, at 19:49:14
In reply to Re: Trying doesn't count, I guess..., posted by annierose on April 5, 2005, at 14:32:40
>> If you can, please listen to your wise babble friends. Daisy is so right. You will regret the chance to say "good-bye". Yes, it will be painful, but at least you were able to have the last session. You DO want to see her again, otherwise it wouldn't be so painful.
--I know, you (and everyone here) is right. I need to at least see her for me, so that I'm comfortable with how this ends. I think, all of this time, my therapy focused a lot on her, and even now it's about not making it easy on her, or (conversely) not going back so she won't have to deal with me anymore. But I know if I reacted that way, out of hurt or spite or anger or whatever, I'll regret it later. I still might....Who knows what'll happen, I could go and mess everything up like I'm so famous for and make it all worse (maybe that's what I'm really afraid of)....But in spite of everything, I know she tried, and I know I care about her, and I need to let her know those two things.Thank you.
SV
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