Posted by Daisym on March 17, 2005, at 10:21:10
In reply to It was even worse than I thought., posted by Aphrodite on March 16, 2005, at 15:11:35
I'm really sorry you had such a rough time. It sounds like you were really flooded and that is so dangerous. It is nice to know he cared enough to take action.
As far as a break down...I think you do for short periods of time, you let it all out, with tears, throwing up, etc. etc. and then you go really quiet for a period of time. Like your brain turns off and your psyche needs a rest. And then slowly you begin working on stuff again. The best thing about times like these is that a lot of stuff gets said in a hurry and it isn't that painful reflection of "should I say this or not" -- it just tumbles out. And when I'm like this, mostly my therapist goes into complete support mode. Which sets aside worries about needing him too much.
To get through this I strongly encourage you to allow yourself extra sessions if you want them, I know you go today. Try to NOT attend activities this weekend. Eat comfort foods and watch disney movies with your son. I've made it through some really hard times by sitting and watching my children sleep. Even as big as they are, when they are asleep they still look vulnerable and like they need me. And there is strength in that.
Mostly you have to hang on to the idea that this will pass, the intensity will lessen and slowly you will feel stronger. I know it doesn't feel that way right now, in the middle of it all. And you aren't alone with it this time. Keep remembering that.
Hugs from me.
Daisy
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