Posted by lonelygal on October 12, 2004, at 19:28:13
In reply to Re: my records » lonelygal, posted by fallsfall on October 12, 2004, at 6:57:19
Thanks fallsfall. I haven't canceled yet, so I guess I am going to therapy tomorrow. I did however e-mail my t today. She has told me not to e-mail her anymore, b/c I dont' talk in session and she thinks it's halting therapy. I e-mailed her anyways telling her I was embarassed to go see her & that I feel like a kid & that I didn't want to talk about what happened that night I called her & that I missed my old t. I think she is going to be pissed that I continue to e-mail her when she told me not too. I feel badly that I'm probably ticking her off, but I also feel badly that I feel screwed. that I can't talk to her in session, that i don't know how to trust her & the one way i feel comfortable talking (through e-mail) she won't allow. she said i could bring writing in, but i just dont' want to be there in her presence when she reads anything...
about reading my records... i dont' want her to be in the way when i read them (if i ever get to) if that makes any sense. and why shoudl i have to pay for another therapy session when i can read them perfectly well myself. therapy is expensive. and i just want to be able to read what i want to read and think about it and not be interrupted. i want to be alone. it feels intrusive for her to even be there.
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