Posted by lucy stone on August 16, 2004, at 16:12:23
In reply to Re: I quit therapy/To His Credit, posted by underthecs on August 16, 2004, at 12:30:46
Speaking for myself, I think therapy can be the answer to all this, or at least part of the answer. I think I have many of the same issues that you have, rage needed a dumping ground, the urge to lash out and let the rage find a target, and the burning need to be important to my T. These things are all getting better thanks to his kind and patient work. I know that I am a challenging patient, but I want to be. I think (or used to think) that at least I made an impression on him, even if it was a negative impression. Over the last 4 years we have been working on why I act this way. Why all the rage? Why the need of a target? Who's attention and I trying to be by being so mean and hateful? Why do I fanatisize about being his number one most special patient, and what would it get me if I was? I've come to learn that I have him at a central point in a fantasy, one that I have put others in before. We are gradually working our way of this and my life is getting better. In my experience, sticking with the therapy and working on these issues has been the answer and I hope it can be the answer for you. There is a reason why you act like this, a good reason, and he can help you find out what it is. I have one piece of advice that I give to everyone who will listen...it's OK to write those venting emails, but it might be a good idea to sit on them for a bit before you send them. Wait a few hours or days, re-read them, and decide if you really want to send them. The venting can be good but on reflection you may decide that hitting "delete" instead of "send" is in your best interest.
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