Posted by antigua on July 9, 2004, at 17:07:17
In reply to Re: disturbing dream means???***possible trigger** » shadows721, posted by B2chica on July 9, 2004, at 12:02:45
I, too, froze up and when I'm trying to work through it now I still freeze up. I thought if I made myself so still and small, he would forget I was there and I could disappear.
I know now that my pattern was to freeze up and once I got to the point that I couldn't take it anymore, I would simply float away, up to the ceiling and just watch what was happening. I laughed at the girl who was having this done to her because I had escaped. In essence, I disassociated when it became too difficult to handle.
GG is right--it's a natural human action to respond to fear by fight, flight or freeze. I'm still angry that I didn't fight, and I couldn't get away, so I froze. I wish I could have fought, though, but I know that I was actually pretty defenseless.
So you're doing the right things. It's just so hard when it all tumbles out together.
Hang in there,
antigua
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