Posted by Dinah on July 31, 2003, at 15:44:10
The entire session was based on a tangle of truths and lies. And I didn't even realize it until later.
I let my desire to look like a good girl overcome my usual truthfulness. After all, I know he knows I'm not a "good girl" and that he's okay with that. He accepts the uglier sides of me.
I wrote down the real truth, and I have another session Monday. The truth should be able to wait that long, right? I'm having this itchy crawly feeling of desire to confess all. But confessing all Monday should be fine, right?
Moreover, I think I had a reason for fibbing a bit. I'm feeling so fragile right now that even the temporary sort of anger that the truth will probably cause could overwhelm my coping skills enough that I wouldn't be able to talk about it at all. It's ok to strike while the iron is cold in these emotional matters, isn't it? Or is the whole purpose of therapy to strike while the iron is hot? I can't take that right now, I don't think. My cold has left me feeling low and overemotional. The slightest thing oversets me. I have the nervous system of a two year old and the common cold causes me to be as cranky and overwraught as a sick child.
It's ok to wait till I feel better to tell him, isn't it?
poster:Dinah
thread:247102
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