Posted by terra miller on June 17, 2002, at 22:38:47
Hi. In less than two weeks... my mother is visiting (rolling eyes), i have a meeting with a new pdoc --my insurance changed and old pdoc no longer covered, so i've got to break in/interview another one to see how he's going to relate to a client with DID- usually they're compassionately knowledgeable or disbelieving or look at you like you're some circus case.... and i have a court hearing to see if my temporary protective order can be made permanent. and, i've got some trauma that i don't really believe anyway related to american flags, so i can't wait until this season is over!
As you can imagine, I am disoriented most of the time. I am so together outwardly for my kids. Writing here is one of the things that keeps me sane, because I can relate as a compassionate and knowledgeable adult. (at least i try to... <smile>) But most of the time I cannot find myself and I'm living in a cloud and protecting myself so much that i cannot trust even my therapist.
so that's my life. in three weeks it's going to look so different. but for now, i can't even see. fyi.
~terra~
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