Posted by ChicagoKat on September 19, 2012, at 16:50:14
In reply to Re: What would we be really doing? » SLS, posted by ChicagoKat on September 19, 2012, at 16:02:07
> > > I wonder what would we be doing if we didn't suffer from this illness?
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> > > I would be working in my studio. Spend summers in France partaking in painting workshops. No anxiety, no fear, no tears, no insomnia.
> > > No more envying those who enjoy sunsets...
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> > > Oh well,
> > > ihatedrugs
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> > You really have an appreciation for life and are still full of positive energy. I hope you can soon enjoy those sunsets. You deserve it.
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> > As for me, I don't know what I would do right now if I were to become well today. My perceptions and outlook change dramatically when I am in remission such that my plans in life change as well. So, right now, I am uncertain as to what I will want to do as I approach remission. Either way, my goal is to return to employment. Too many years have passed for me to go back to school. I am looking for financial independence and stability. When I was younger, I wanted to become a MD/PhD in psychiatry and the neurosciences. I had a passion for medicine and healing people. Gone.
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> > Still, I look forward to a bright future and enjoying sunsets. Right now, the sun is rising.
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> > - Scott
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> Scott, you remind me of myself. When I was younger I dreamt of being a psychiatrist. I even went to med school for two years until some very bad episodes in my life plus the depression/anxiety I've also fought put an end to that dream. I was already a PharmD, so I went back to that, only working part time. Eventually my disease got so bad that I lost my job from calling in too often (especially when I was enduring ECT). So I suppose, if it weren't for my illness, I'd be a psychiatrist, doing my best to help those who suffer terribly from the pain and devastation of life caused by their disease. All I worked for is gone. Right now my only dream is to feel well enough to sit and enjoy a good book. DEPRESSION SUCKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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> Kat
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>P.S. Scott, I meant to mention that you obviously have a huge understanding of the meds used to treat mental illness, not to mention all the neurotransmitters and how the meds affect them. You have helped scores ir not hundereds of people on this forum with your vast knowledgs. So you may not have become an MD/PhD, but you are still doing what you set out to do: helping people while using medical knowledge you must have gained on the way. I, for one, am one of the number you helped. So thank you!!! :)
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