Posted by rjlockhart37 on August 20, 2012, at 1:26:37
I've been thinking how to get out of this primative lowlife thinking, instead of thinking of how bad things are....find the solution and change them to positve things. You know Ronald Reagan was really...i wished I could have that mentality he had....he was always optimistic, everyone liked him well not everyone....i drag alot of stuff with me when I go somewhere...
my meds are not taking effect and the only thing I can rely on until I get this advanced testing is faith with God
these goddanmed things in my body put a resistance to everything, make me hate everything about my system...there's so much defective sh*t that doesnt work right, like a bad car...you just want to kick it and throw it away.
but....obviosly the options that meds are going to work is not at this time, its all to the wonderful error of my body. You know I guess I can save this hatred up and use it usefully for something...with enough anger it will make you do things usally your afraid of doing.
but still....i've been praying to God, and once and while I'll write Lucifer to relieve me from the distress maybe his force is causing. Like I said, my mind is receptive to him....i don't know what I did but its the soul inside me he wants. Vary difficult to resist charm when everything else is sh*tty....
thank you for reading....
not a scholar but understand distress
Med:
Prozac 60mg
Lamictal 200mg
Zyprexa 20mg
Fanapt 16mg
Nuvigil 250mg
I apologized to no one and was satisfied with who I am.
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