Posted by violette on April 14, 2011, at 19:15:47
In reply to Re: sensible help needed with norco » violette, posted by floatingbridge on April 8, 2011, at 21:02:57
Hi FB, Just checking back in with you.
I know your health issues are multi-faceted, and much of family are totally insane so i can relate to that as well.
Thought it could be worth mentioning that when i first started seeing a psychiatrist who was also a therapist, I got worse before I started getting better. Much worse. Panic attacks, physical pain, hallucinations, nightmares, hypochondria, and so forth. My primary coping strategy was reading obsessively about psychology. Now that i allowed attachment and dependency with my therapist/doctor, and accepting emotions, the storm has settled, I have had no need for medications and most of those symptoms have disappeared. My pschosomatic symptoms even changed in accordance with what was going on in therapy. Not bad after just one year of this therapy, especially considering I spent over a decade on medications and other waste of money therapies.
If your current therapist/doctor works with emotional defenses, it could be why you are feeling worse. It might sound cliche, but even though we are all different, it's very common to feel all torn apart when this is occurring. For some of us, it's necessary because it leads to integratation of all the disavowed emotions and split off parts, which leads to a chance to redevelop your sense of self, real healing. Anxiety and depression, among other things, are often symptoms of a condition. And you know this to be true intellectually-meds only do so much. They are often like a band-aid. But even band-aids need removed after so long.
It's not for everyone, and i hope you don't give up. For some reason, when i read your posts, I always think you don't have to suffer as much as you do and that chasing meds might be a way of running from your emotions. I'm not implying that you should not take them, but think about how many years you've been here searching for medication after medication, and how many different medications you've tried, how many different combinations you've tried. Has it gotten you anywhere? Maybe finding a new therapist will get you somewhere. I hope so. I recall you telling me you have attachment issues (C-PTSD), so please remember that therapy for C-PTSD should be about your relationship with your therapist, and all the feelings that emerge in the transference.
Whatever you do, I hope you find your inner peace. Best of luck to you. :)
p.s. if i have it all wrong, please ignore my post. I am just trying to help, not sure if i am or can.
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