Posted by floatingbridge on April 13, 2011, at 7:01:24
Idle speculation. No, research. Avid advice seeking?
While down to xanax cr (1.5 mg daily) and norco 15mgs daily), I am realizing I am a royally volatile, angry, bitter, unpleasant person. I can't stand myself (old news, but without the buffer of 15 meds, there's no distraction).
My pdoc has thrown in the towel. He hasn't quit. I suspect he's waiting for me to.
I am highly ambivalent about committing to any medication. The best talk I ever had in recent years was with a new therapist whom I was able to confide
that I was incredibly ambivalent about being alive. Since I am, I'm stuck with it. Never had plans to remove myself. But life is painful and frightening every day.Should I bother to try an maoi or serezone? Am I too raw to try anything now? Maybe in a few months off AD's I
won't be the world's angriest woman, though certainly I could be even more friendless.I am so very bitter. And afriad of dissapearing. Being proven worthless.
Asleep tonight at ten, up since 1:30.
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