Posted by maxime on October 24, 2010, at 22:40:56
In reply to Re: To Lou » maxime, posted by violette on October 23, 2010, at 23:27:27
> I didn't realize you were so concerned as it seems parasuicidal behavior might be viewed as much more acceptable, justified, validated, and worthy of sympathy than others' behavior here...
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> Glad to know I'm not alone in reaching out to others. :)I want you to know that what you wrote above really hurt me. I've been on PB for years now and others will agree that I don't just post when I am suicidal. I haven't been parasuicidal in 15 or more years. In September and October I posted a lot about being suicidal because I WAS suicidal. I ended going to stay at a crisis centre for several weeks. They don't accept people who are parasuicidal and any such behaviour will get you kicked out the centre.
I was a mess in September and October because I had to do a washout before starting an MAOI. Usually the washout is 2 weeks, but I was a away on holiday so my washout period was closer to 4 weeks. I WAS A MESS. Being able to post on PB about how I was doing helped a great deal. It was my only support system. And for the record, I would never post that I was going to kill myself even if I had a plan. I wouldn't do that on a discussion board because there would be little anyone could do and they would be extremly worried but unable to help.
I think you had a lot of nerve to post what you did about me. You don't know me. You don't know my history with PB. You know nothing.
There, I got that off my chest so now I can let go of the hurt inside me. Thank God! I had several members send me a Babble Mail about what you posted. Why? Because they care.
Bipolar Type 2, ED-NOS, Self-hatred
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Being happy doesn´t mean the pain is gone. you just bury it deeper.
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