Posted by Abby Cunningham on April 7, 2010, at 15:48:24
In reply to Re: A feeling of horror and dread? » alchemy, posted by Roslynn on April 4, 2010, at 15:55:59
Yes, I get that feeling in the morning when I wake up and I am confidant that it is the psychotropic medication in specific: XANAX which I have been on for +30 years, is the culprit. I have reduced my dosage from 3mg. several years ago to 1.5 mg.
I feel awful upon awakening - scared, depressed, fearful, anxious, anticipating danger, all that stuff, due to the increased cortisol levels (I believe).
As the day progresses I tend to feel better and towards evening am almost feeling "normal", whatever that really is.
I find that my complete dependence on God and His saving grace has made me much closer to wellness than any medication - in fact see the thread Linkadge posted - medication has changed my brain to the point that it probably will never be what it should be and I am so very sorry I ever took XANAX in particular. That was given to me in the 80s when it first came out and I was totally innocent of any information about benzodiazepines. I rue the day I ever took the first one, but that is unchangeable.
My faith is sustaining me and I am focusing on increasing the Lord and decreasing myself, as the Bible teaches, and believe me the Lord and His Word, the Bible, is sufficient - more than to meet my needs. I am physically addicted to xanax but I am not letting it ruin my life any more.
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