Posted by rjlockhart04-08 on September 13, 2009, at 13:15:54
Hi,
Listen, I'm just here to ask just for advice. What i'm going through, is "freeze" during a time of the day. I think about responsiblities, and then i realize that, or how hard it is for me to apply them. I feel alot of sadness, I think it's shame because knowing what i do is not good enough. Right now, I don't know if I'm disabled, i can't be in some aspect's because, I've seen myself do things just fine, it's just on certain medication's can i do this. And, when i apply myself to it, It's usally hard, to do routines, even when i have anxiety (that's pretty bad feeling). Yet the view, from my mind, I want to succeed, but there is alway's a deep fear, or a mindset that hold's me back. It's been here, and I want to rid it, yet is this a comfort zone? and will life lose it's quality of life more than it is now?
What is it, if a mediation is known as "addiction potential" yet, i've been on this [dexedrine spansule] for years [since 7thgrade] in the past, and it helps with quality of life in my case. Because how it stimulates, certain sector's of the brain, to function in a way that "I know I can do, and I am doing it properly [work, routine]" With out the constant fear, of "oh no, i messed up". And, the fear that comes, like it's a monster holding you to it's aspect's [socially isolated, stay where you know for fact your not going to humiliation, and lack of energy even when taking Provigel].
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It's alot of aspect's, yet the main one of worry, "Even if i have faith, fear is still there, "Don't go back, it will hurt".
What do think I should tell my doctor? And not going through a whole psychoanaylis, just getting to the bottem with out being direct, rude, just "say it like is". And I know that there are things, that you have to deal with, even including being miserable. Just accept it.
Thanks for anything.
poster:rjlockhart04-08
thread:916894
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