Posted by deerock on April 28, 2009, at 11:00:53
I was talking to my T yesterday about how much I love Mike Tyson. When she asked why, I said that my feelings for him have to do with what he accomplished as a boxer, how talented he once was and how honest he is about who he is and his limitations as a person. She responded by saying strongly that Mike Tyson always blames other people. I said no, he does not, he constantly berates himself now that he is no longer in the spotlight, about his decisions and choices in the past and in the present. She said ok, he may do that too. After the appointment, I stumbled accross an interview with James Toback who made a movie about Tyson which is due out any day now. Perhaps it is out already.
Q. There will be people, I suspect, who'll look at this and say it's an apology for Mike Tyson.
A. But his self-recrimination, his prosecution of himself, is nonstop throughout the movie. His notion of himself is not one of endless self-justification. It's one of constant self-recrimination. He's saying by implication that I'm the one who screwed up here. He's not turning it on other people. It's only Don King and Desiree Washington he's hard on.
I dont know why my T disagreeing with me bothers me so much. I guess, basically, I am finding proof that her perceptions are not always right on. And if I am trusting her to make me better, or help me get better, I am concerned that she may be skewed in her views, thinking that I have issues that I do not have, leading me to default my perceptions to hers, taking her opinion over my own, and leading me to suffer more than I need to. She has no showed for 2 appointments and told me she was sick and did not hear her alarm go off. She also apologized. This is 2 out of several, so maybe no big deal. Maybe. And then she talked to my psychiatrist without my signing a HIPAA form, simply using my verbal OK to do to. When i asked her why she did that, she simply said What is your concern here, what are you afraid I may do? I did not state this but my concern is that she broke the law and did not own up to it.I will bring these concerns to her.
Do you have any thoughts on this?
poster:deerock
thread:893266
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