Posted by iforgotmypassword on February 19, 2009, at 13:07:30
last night was remarkable. i felt like i was responding because again, as has happened with atomoxetine, i felt my vision open up like everything in my field of view was accounted for, like i might be able to teach myself to drive a motor vehicle. i felt more coordinated apart from the awareness i seemed to be gaining, i felt like i could really look down the whole street and see where i was going. i could start see what i used to like when i would just look up at stuff. i wasn't an anxious and wanting to get home out of view as soon as possible...
that was quite a while after a 15mg dose of buspirone, and i drank a beer and left the house. i don't usually drink unless out where people are, so the alcohol in it could have been part of it, but it rarely adds to any feeling of awareness.
i took my second dose when i came back in. in a bit, my jaw was tingling again, i wasn't feeling as aware. i fell asleep, woke up today, stiff, arms buzzing, awful, feeling no benefits. but i also woke up extra groggy, as if i had been severely exhausted or getting over a flu.
so i have only take five doses. yesterday, two at 15mg, the day before at 10mg. 10mg today for some reason, i think i was thinking of the second dose i took when i got home, and felt a worsening of EPS, wondering if i was "building" somehow at 15mg despite the remarkably short half life. but i don't want to stay at a dose that won't help, and then i'll forget and move onto another drug... i also do not want anymore permanent damage, the D2 issue really scares me.
blowing off this drug will be regrettable, even if it doesn't work at all in the long run, i believe i have very good reason to believe my problems are due to too much SE (leading to weakening DAergic system) because of how my permanent EPS started with SSRIs years upon years ago. if this doesn't work there isn't much left. and nothing in the pipeline that is more 5-ht1a selective that looks like it is actually going to get through. i guess i could ask for Special Access for tandospirone from japan or something... (maybe this is a good idea?)
(and, my doctor doesn't disapprove of my doing this (tinkiering), in case i should mention this.)
SO THE MAIN QUESTION IS (sorry for being disorganized as usual):
i decided 10mg (as in the first of 10mg b.i.d) was the dose today, just an hour ago about. i am still stiff. i felt like buspirone has been associated with both relief and worsening so it is complex. i feel like if i don't stay at 15mg, i won't recognize the benefit when/if i do go up to it. i don't notice things easily... i really don't know what to do. maybe i should keep thinking about that tandospirone, has that ever caused EPS, akathisia, or tardive syndromes to anyones' knowledge?
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