Posted by rjlockhart04-08 on November 11, 2008, at 10:44:49
In reply to What would help you feel supported? » rjlockhart04-08, posted by Geegee on November 9, 2008, at 21:31:38
G,
Well, i've been here since 2003, so that was 5 years ago, but i had diffrent screenname. During that time, there was nothing psychologcially happening, just i had some questions about the medication Adderall i was taking, i was in high school.
Then, i started to blog about the errors, misundertandings, i said stuff back then to get attention, which god i want erase that stupid, stupid stuff. What i write today, is a result of what happened from 2004-2008.
I am prone sometimes not to....respond. But, i know alot people pointed me out and say well....dont listen, dont get help. The main thing, the messages where "professional" advice, but i didnt know, how to apply it to life. Because of "Mother Dearest", who would lock up the computer because she saw people where telling me to get out of the house. I.....she "taught" me, well you cant "teach" but you can psychollically twist truth, and say....no you cant handle that. Mind Washing to gain control over things, because my mother herself never was in control, she's out of control, she doesnt listen, but turns it into a drama diliema.
Alot people have told me, police "get out on your own". I embarrasing, i can, but i didnt know because, first, i was depressed for 2006-2007, then i started realize the truth that was distored to me. People my age, 21 are living on their own, in collage, about graduate. My mother hid my UNT collage, which did say i wasnt accepted, but she didnt do anything, i could of spoken to an admistrator about the error's on the SAT i took.
People have told me "say to your mother, dont control me, i have bounderies". She got on psychobabble and read everything and ripped the computer, and locked it up.
So, i know, have alter ego's that resulted from rages, fights, trama, stuff i can't rerember. But, even though it is considered a personality disorder, the imagination created a system to know her plans, and play her tricks.
So, wish me luck. I just like vent here. But if, there is a serious moral obligation, my aunt, my uncle, my family doesnt care and says "your ignorant". No that made me, furious for them to just sit, and let me go mentally insane. And my mother will always say "he was always like this". Lies.
And, on 3 person reading this, if maybe one of the RATS, my aunt, or dad, any gossipers about me from my family (not to people to psychobabble) GET A LIFE, you dont sh*t, i dont want your help, because you cannot do anything. My family will get on just for fun to read my postings. Funnny, this is a "good" site, they say "that's for coo coo people" Well, that's how ignorant my family is, exept my brother because he understands my way of doing things. I'll leave this at rest and peace.
But thank you, gee
rj
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