Posted by chiron on January 9, 2008, at 22:04:00
Obviously depression, but this annoying unsettling emptiness/loneliness, even when I have a lot of friends (and can put on a fun face usually) - and then an opposing feeling of not wanting to do anything, but go crazy not doing anything. Some agitation, easily irritated. I feel CRAZY but I don't know if there are words to describe it. I have felt more crazy, but I still can't handle this- every day is miserable. And I think too much. About death, why are we here, how do I get out of this ongoing pain, etc. I wake up when I don't have work worried about how to make the day pass.
And any med suggestions? :) It seems antipsychotics would be the first answer, but they have a paradoxical effect on me. I keep hoping maybe at a higher dose of Lamictal it might kick in, but so far I don't think it has had an antidepressant effect on me. I do think it has helped level my cycling.
Background: Depression 20+ years; tried about everything. Negative effects on antipsychotics, Lithium, Depakote, Topamax, & Neurontin (all that I can remember). SSRIs have offered some relief, but I started cycling. Currently: 100mg Lamictal, 20mg Celexa, 2mg Xanax, 150 Wellbutrin.
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