Posted by TrishP on April 16, 2007, at 6:59:37
I just don't understand why I am not happy. I should be very happy and content with my life. I have a good job, a nice house, a nice car, a wonderful husband and the luxury to spend money here and there without too much worry. But as far back as I can remember (maybe 4 or 5 years old) I have been miserable.
I am 39 years old, I never had any children and now I feel like I am going to live for the next 30 - 40 years and die. What am I going to do with the rest of my life? I don't really have a passion. I look around at my friends and they are knee deep in frustration with their children. They look at me and think how lucky I am that I could read a book or take a bath in peace.
I've thought about adopting a child, but I don't know if that would make me happy or just help me relate to everyone else's life.
Am I just a miserable person? Am I just depressed? Would I be better if I would stick to some meds?
I would never take my life, but sometimes I don't understand why I am here and others are not. I feel like I am just taking up space and I wish I could give my next 20 years to someone else who would really enjoy them.
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