Posted by aminated on February 7, 2007, at 17:10:54
I live in California, in a city where i can choose from many pdocs, psychopharmacologists etc. No antidepressant, mood-stabilizer,(yes, even neuroleptics) or anything else had lifted my mood (with the exception of Ritalin/amphetamines, sometimes; I have been on Adderall 60 mg/day for 8 years, still gets me up and going most days) but i still feel AWFUL most of the time (have lost nearly all my friends, never go out/socialize except when pressured to by others, rarely enjoy anything, no interest, etc.) I have found that morphine (or Percodan, or even heroin in a pinch) really DOES work to lift my mood (I prefer morphine, about 5-10 mg or so orally; usually i buy MS-Contin on the street and chop 'em up) -- totally corrects the problem! I would much prefer to be under the care/direction of a doc though, with a Rx. Would anyone be so kind as to tell me how to go about finding a doc to help me?
My current pdoc says he has no experience Rx'ing opioids for psychiatric reasons, and continues telling me he is feeling frustrated that "we can't find anything that will really make a difference" (I don't doubt him, but....I'm still left getting MS-Contin on the street. Often I can't even find any, which is the worst thing. Oh, and i believe it's illegal, but laws be damned, this is my life; i've spent 15+ years watching it slip through my fingers like sand....I have 3+ yrs. of undergrad under my belt, and would really like to finish a degree or two and find a real job before i die (I'm 35)).
Any help/directions/resources would be greatly appreciated. Thanks, Aminated.
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