Posted by tygereyes on August 19, 2005, at 17:32:34
After two years of being off SSRIs due to bladder-related side effects, my psychiatrist has added Zoloft (which I took, on and off, from the time I was sixteen until I was twenty) to my current medication regimen. And I can't wait to start feeling its effects.
You see, Zoloft not only returned me to baseline -it made me BETTER than baseline. I was five shades above normal. Not that I was hypomanic; I was simply happy - excessively happy, one might say. I'd never been happier in my life, not even before my psychiatric illness began.
Since I've been off of it, I've definitely had periods of stability, but it was never the same as when I was on Zoloft. I was never H-A-P-P-Y in that "I love life and everything is wonderful and I even like myself and this is a miracle drug" kind of way. And I missed that feeling like crazy.
Has anyone experienced the same thing with SSRIs? Finding that they make/made you feel like you had surpassed your baseline and then feeling that life was not the same after you'd stopped taking them, even if your psychiatric symptoms did not return?
It is frustrating to know that "life after Zoloft" will always feel sub-par to me, even during periods of symptom-free stability. In a way, I wish I'd never known what it was like to begin with - then I wouldn't have to miss it so darn much.
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