Posted by Spriggy on February 1, 2005, at 14:41:40
I am just feeling SOOOO strange. This is all new to me.
I can be convinced one minute that I am better ( no anxiety or depression- feeling pretty good) and in about 2 hours, feel VERY weird in my head.. can be convinced I am going insane, and then become almost suicidal my depression is sooo deep.
I think what is so scarey to me is that I have never experienced anything like this in my life.
I would be considered pretty even keel. I've been depressed before but never been "in depression."
I can't understand why I can't get a grip on my own emotions or mental state.
I am almost beginning to think I need to be in a hospital and have them figure out what in the world is wrong with me..
I've been off the Lexapro (going on day 2) and at times I feel back to normal, and other times am flooded with this unstable emotional state.. from feeling great to feeling insane to feeling utterly hopeless.
I feel like my brain has shut down but at the same time, it is overloaded and won't stop. It makes NOOOO sense.
I went grocery shopping yesterday, came home and put all the groceries on the my countertops and stood there absolutely CONFUSED over what to do with all the groceries. IT was like I was overwhelmed and couldn't figure out how to put them away.
I am so scared.
I have two young children. My oldest son is severely autistic and I can NOT afford to function like this. I have children that depend on me.
I'm at such a loss. My only hope is that God will intervene soon and heal me of this before I lose this battle.
*SIGH*
poster:Spriggy
thread:451090
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