Posted by Eljakeo25 on November 1, 2004, at 12:31:35
In reply to Re: I am better now. No adderall, just Provigil, posted by Eljakeo25 on November 1, 2004, at 12:22:00
Update:
My problem was that I was going through the adderall tablets too fast. Not that I was craving them or dependent, but, I just wanted to push myself harder, and when I felt it wear off, I wanted another typical 15mg dose. Being honost with my doctor, he believes the adderall at the right dosage still helps to alievate impulsive ideation. (The cops let me take my adderall and Klonopin, when the "captured" me so it would help me calm down. And the officer said "I have never seen a change in someones behavior in 5 minutes before, threatening suicide, to being a bright, motivated, and friendly young man" (again the suicide comments to people were cries for attention during the impulsive outburst, I actually don't even think about suicide nor I want to die, but they get peoples attention and thats what impulse disorders do.) So the pdoc is going to put me on 20mg of Adderall XR BID (take one in the morning and one in the afternoon) and since it is controlled release, it lasts longer in the system, and I won't be as tempted to treat them like candy, but more like my Cymbalta capsules. If I cannot still control my adderall intake (again not because of addiction, but more for a desprate relief of symptoms + pushing myself to be my very best at the same time), I will have to quit adderall for awhile because I do not want to become addicted, and the way I was using it, athough not compulsively, was heading in that direction. So the XR will help in that sense, it helped before and I will bring two adderalls with me and make sure I leave the bottle at home and remembering that the Provigil is working too.. Thanks so much for listening to my psychobabble =)
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