Posted by Racer on October 5, 2004, at 13:03:23
In reply to ready to kill myself, posted by linkadge on October 5, 2004, at 10:59:43
Second, no one wants to see you go that way. I don't think anyone here will help you give up, because so many of us have an emotional investment in you. That may not seem like anything to you right now, but you know what? Hearing that people on these boards care enough to want me to live has helped me in the past. I give that caring to you now.
Third. The drugs are probably not causing permanent damage to you, although I feel that way too -- WHEN I AM DEPRESSED. (And, with that eating disorder, think how I react to the idea of what the weight gain has done to me? Especially since now, with the ED back in play, the extra skin is flapping around. It *does* feel as if they've done permanent damage. It just isn't really true.) No one really knows what the drugs do long term -- what we know, though, those of us who have been treated successfully, is what they do short term: they allow us to function. They improve the quality of our lives.
The goal, linkadge, is to improve the quality of our lives by allowing us to function at a more optimal level. If you have not yet reached this goal, it's time to get aggressive with your doctor. Take a list of the syptoms that are bothering you most to your next appointment, and talk to him about how to address those problems. Then, give the drugs a fair chance to work for you -- about six to eight weeks to reach full effectiveness for most. If the first drug doesn't work, talk to your doctor about either augmenting it or changing it. Work *with* your doctor, be a full partner in your treatment, and make remission your goal.
If you're in school, go find out what sort of counseling they offer, and make use of that resource, too -- even if all you do is use it to support you through the adjustment to new medications. Make use of all the available resources. They may not be perfect, but they may keep you alive and safe until you do reach remission.
Best luck.
poster:Racer
thread:399146
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