Posted by Mr.Scott on December 15, 2003, at 18:09:50
In reply to Re: Trileptal vs. Lamictal or Both? » Maxime, posted by poop'd-out on December 13, 2003, at 19:43:04
When I take an AD I get wonderfully hypomanic for a few days or weeks...then it pisses out and I only notice side effects and maybe a barrier from the deepest and darkest of moods, but the chronic remains. That first period on an AD is actually dangerous for me. I get overconfident and spend too much money. I idealize relationships that may be less than ideal, and participate in them in a way that looks harmful or scarry a week later. I don't know what to do with myself except to accept that I'm mentally ill and unstable which does wonders for the ego. Last week I was having sex 3 times on each date and having a hard time sleeping...This week I'm depressed and involved in a relationship again that I thought had ended for a reason (namely because I am not ready to take on anything beyond my problematic self!). I also overspent on Christmas gifts.
Ahh! Lexapro...Thank you for the credit card bill and the return of hassles I just managed to free myself from.
I am hopeless, erratic, and going to bed for a few hours. I just don't know what to do with myself..
Scott
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