Posted by Ame Sans Vie on October 28, 2003, at 6:40:22
Hi everyone,
First off, I really have to thank Dr. Bob so much for being so lenient with my block -- I thought I was really gone for good!! Thank you, Dr. Bob.
The Apology:
My situation, as horrible as it was (is), did not warrant my expression of all that hatred, and I am genuinely sorry. My religion believes in forgiveness just as Christianity does, but I suppose I wasn't feeling very religious that day... Anyway, I really wish I could go back and change much of what I said, but hopefully it will suffice somewhat for you all to know that I *was* having very bad med reactions (no excuse, I know... but just hoping you can realize that I'm not normally like that). The Prozac/Ultram combination gave me a case of serotonin syndrome; Wellbutrin/Ultram gave me a seizure which left me hospitalized for two days. I detoxed from the Ultram completely (very easy to do with Prozac in my system, as I've posted before) and I quit the Wellbutrin XL. I hope I can be welcomed back here, and I really hope I haven't made many enemies... I was hostile, frazzled, and tore up, and my frenzied message displays that. I guess it all comes down to my begging for your forgiveness.
The Update:
Thank you infinitely to all who've offered suggestions regarding Norma... we're looking into our options, and I will keep you updated on this (at Social, of course).
So, now I'm on 20mg Prozac, 12mg Klonopin Wafers, 30mg DextroStat, and 4mg Xanax as-needed. Guess what? I feel *great*! Not just "not depressed", but motivated, happy, not wanting to spend all day in bed... ha, who would've thunk that *the* one drug my doctors never gave a fair trial of (the Prozac) would end up being my salvation after the failure of dozens of others?
The fibromyalgia pain -- GONE. Halle-freaking-lujah! (bet none of you were expecting that word, even interjected with 'freaking', to come out of my keyboard anytime soon, lol) The fibro has been the scourge of my existence for months now, keeping me bedridden mostly, at 20 years old. Now I won't even need opioids for *that*, let alone for my depression. I'm not sure whether it's the Prozac, my discontinuation of Ultram, quitting use of all products containing aspartame, going back on the Atkins diet, or some combination of the three, but I'm not going to question it. The horrible pain is gone -- gone, gone gone. Life is good. :-)
Now I only hope that at least some of you will speak to me still... once again, I apologize profusely for anything/everything I said.
Sincerely,
Michael
poster:Ame Sans Vie
thread:274181
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/20031025/msgs/274181.html