Posted by Jaynee on January 29, 2003, at 15:34:32
In reply to Celexa and craving booze, posted by Jaynee on January 28, 2003, at 17:13:38
Well I got more celexa, and thank god, ativan. But it is going to take me around 3 to 6 months to see a pdoc. I am in Canada. The only way to see one sooner is to slash my wrists, but I don't feel like doing that, so I will wait. I guess the good news is I don't want to hurt myself, well at least not today.
The weird thing is, my doctor thought I should try Remeron. I told him I don't feel like waking up one morning to find myself weighing more than my fridge. I don't know why he thought Remeron was my answer. I am not all that anxious right now, just overwhelmed by most things and I can't seem to get my shit together. I am only working part-time, and it takes everything I have to get up and go. Why remeron?
Anyways, second day on Celexa, 5mg and I feel like I am kind of dopey stoned, which I kind of like. But I still have this feeling that I just can't get high enough, the same feeling I get when I drink. I didn't get this feeling the first few weeks the first time I took celexa, but then again I was in a state of constant panic first time around trying Celexa. I think I will go for 10mg tomorrow. The self abusive thoughts seem to be slowing down, but they are just below the surface, waiting to jump out, f*&#in weird.
Thanks again everyone for you support, it is so nice to be able to talk to others about this, without feeling like some sort of alien creature, or some kind of human defect.
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