Posted by sly on July 26, 2002, at 8:15:11
In reply to Re: Feeling terrible. » jannbeau, sly, Gabbi Lynn, posted by xena on July 26, 2002, at 0:18:08
You don't sound silly at all, I know exactly what you're going through. Those feelings will go away, trust me, I woke up every day thinking the best thing that could happen to me today is that I will die. I drove by a fatal car accident one day on my way to work and actually thought to myself, "wow, those people are so lucky, they're dead and they didn't even have to commit suicide, I wish that could happen to me".
I told a friend that at dinner and he looked at me like I was crazy, he told me if I really believed that I needed help. I really didn't understand how wrong that sounded.
Four months later, thanks in large part to Effexor and therapy, I know that dead, empty, invisible feeling is not normal and I don't have to feel like that anymore.
Most of my friends don't know I'm on AD's, but you'll be very surprised how supportive and understanding some of them will be. And how many of them are or were on them themselves! For those that don't, I just say, I don't feel like drinking tonight, it upsets my stomach, or I'm broke, I have other things I need to spend my money on, I don't want the empty calories, I have to get up early tomorrow... You can also order a virgin drink, I offer to go up to the bar and get them, or at home I'll make them myself and leave out the alcohol in mine, no one will know there's no rum in your daiquiri or coke.
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