Posted by nightlight on June 3, 2002, at 13:14:43
In reply to Anxiety and Confusion, posted by Christina on May 29, 2002, at 14:18:47
> My ADD overstimulation manifests in anxiety and confusion, so it becomes difficult for me to concentrate, make decisions, stay focused.
> Once my Adderall kicks in (it's more of a smooth entrance), I am able to focus and I don't worry as much about nagging thoughts.
> Does that make sense?Christina-
Ur 'overstimulation' sounds a LOT like mine. It's as if I bbecome ridiculously charged by so many different sensations, smells,(ugh, that 'Beautiful' perfume on the lady 3 rows down from me at the bank),racing thoughts- I've still got 3 errands to run, but I can't be late to pick up my pre-schooler or I'll be fined $10 for every 5 minutes & I'm already broke enuf, lord, how did I forget to snip the tag out of this new shirt-I feel like huge black crows are slowly pecking me to death - why is it that I always get stuck directly underneath that freakin' MUzak thingie in the ceiling-it's SO loud-god, I bet the mailman already came and I didn't pay that stupid bill-and other overdue notices are in that mailbox & DH is going to get to them before I put them in a safe place (and lose them for 6 months) and what am I doing at the bank any way? I don't have enough money in here to even make a dent in all this tangled-jangled crapola! I'm sweating, I'm being pecked, I'm going to hurl my jelly sandwich breakfast because that lady feels 'Beautiful' today, I'm late, I'm caught,I'm guilty, uncoordinated and there's all that *other* stuff* flying thru my head I probably needed to do y'day-eeeeeeeeeeeEEEEEEEEEE!!!!That's IT! I'm leaving! I'm going home, I'll tell dh I'm having a migraine, vertigo, fainting spell, menstrual overload, perimenopausal 'symptoms' (unidentified-non-specific, but possibly dangerous...) and beg him to pick up our kid NOW so I can into my room, shut the door, and try to freakin' breathe...and we don't get fined and I don't go insane from that 'outside' stuff that burrows tunnels thu my brain and won't let me concentrate on my 'stuff', the real thing, what's important to do or else ur life spins outta control.
I feel like this at least once every day, and sometime *more*.
Talk about wearing urself out doing nothing!
This condition greatly impededs my ability to think clearly, determine priorities, and accomplish much of anything.I was finally dx'd ADD last Nov.at the age of 46-(thank you, God!). The new med schedule has def'ly helped me control my thoughts, to a degree, and I am less blind to what the 'big picture' is. The big picture, the 'clean-up' job and re-education of efficacious coping skills is hard, very hard. But, I finally have good doctors and a sister and brother who 'sorta' understand and are supporting me in ways I never knew I needed or thought I could ask for. My sis has literally saved me from 'losing it completely'.
It was so hard to tell, to come out, to say-'I'm not well" and 'U better believe it' or I'm goin' down. They believed it enuf. It took a crisis to to illustrate my major depression/anxiety/ADD, but..we've begun. Baby steps...More than u ever wanted to hear, I'm sure!
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