Posted by Lorraine on September 3, 2001, at 22:11:26
In reply to Re: Foreign Medications, posted by SLS on August 31, 2001, at 19:26:57
> > > Gosh - it is so difficult to describe to someone how such a door is opened so rarely so as to be separated by years and experienced for only minutes. The movie "Awakenings" is so much a mirror of my life - as I'm sure it is of many others'. It is gut-wrenching to watch. Of the 25 years since the onset of a severe depressive state, I have spent only one 6 month period "awake". It was like Dorothy opening up the door of her black-and-white house to the rush of technicolor that was Oz. When I began to relapse, I felt as if I was being dragged away from everything and everyone, and no amount of effort could stop it from happening. I watched the world of the living, along with my new consciousness, grow more and more distant. Eventually, all of the color was gone, and I could do nothing to again unchain myself from the bottom of my mirky ocean. I desparately and recklessly self-medicated in a frantic effort to get it back, and ended up in the hospital from a Nardil overdose. It wasn't so bad, although I was a bit upset that they didn't serve me sorbé to clear my palette before regaling me with charcoal.
Scott--I just wanted to let you know how much this passage moved me.
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