Posted by Drexxie on July 29, 2001, at 0:56:21
In reply to Re: Celexa rode into my life on a white horse... » Drexxie, posted by Zo on July 28, 2001, at 23:36:59
> Drexxie! My pdoc told me he has one patient - out of 300 - who takes her Dex before bed. Maybe it's you!
OMG! I'm so amazed! That's so unbelievable; I thought it was a sleeping pill for the longest, then later, once I found out it was a stimulant, I just thought everyone else took Sir Dexedrine with them when going to visit the Sandman!
I always told my pdoc that the pharmacists got somewhat "trippy" at times, but I thought that was just the "nature of the beast." He would just tell to mention to the pharmacist my having a 'paradoxical reaction' and if they had any questions to please call him.
Once, when in the hospital for some non psych related whatever... 2 different nurses brought me my night meds. At that time I was taking 45 mg. Dexedrine Spansules. The second nurse to bring me my meds. didn't believe that I'd already taken my nights and literally insisted that I take "what is prescribed by my doctor." Good patient that I am (sly grin) I simply took the extra 3 45 mgs. of Dexedrine.
Turned out that I slept for approximately 19 hours that night and the following day. They claimed to have continuosly awoken me, but I haven't a clue. Apparently my doc was called in finally, (what? the usually hyper Drex, sleeping quietly?! [giggle]) and the error was discovered (there was an understandable mishap as the nurses were understaffed and overworked and both of them had thought that it was their responsiblity to give me night meds.)
My doctor knew my reaction to 90 mgs Dexdrine would be total knock out and simply let me sleep.
When I left that hospital I was nothing if not extremely well rested! (hee hee)All joking aside though, Zo... Sleeping with Sir Dexedrine is not even remotely exciting or fun. Every time I take those pills, I'm reminded of what a complete "freak," I feel myself to be. I suppose it's just that I want to belong with the crowd sometimes and not be the "odd man out," so to speak.
Additionally, I ABSOLUTELY CAN NOT NOT NOT NOT NOT NOT ENDURE ANOTHER PHARMACIST, REFERRAL DOC., NURSE., WHOMEVER- wanting to have a little "speed addiction" conference with me.
Example: Not all that long ago I had to speak with a doctor who was on call one weekend for my pdoc, I was having PTSD flashbacks and extreme anxiety... That doctor upon realizing what meds I was taking AND literally ACCUSED me of being a "speed addict" who was just trying to get his permission so I could take more "uppers". He said I was "faking" everything and was "sorry" but he was not going to enable an addict. Additionally, he told me that I should be well aware that he was going to "tell on me" when he next saw my doctor.
I swear, Zo... It's a miracle I didn't just blow my head off that night. It was beyond surreal. Thankfully, a friend of mine grabbed a couple of adderall, told me to just take the things, and that later if they wanted to arrest her. so be it. What a friend, eh? You'd think I would have just taken more pills myself, but I've gotten such a phobia in regards to being called a "speed junkie/addict/freak" that it's even difficult for me to even swallow my regular doses of this stuff. I've actually cried before taking my night meds.
I'd be much rather take Valium, Xanax and such at beddy bye time... And give up the glam of being a suspected "speed freak" (laughing)
The green eyed monster doesn't want to have to take stimulants at night... oh no... I feel like because I do, I get to experience my nightmare each and every night without even falling asleep...
Thanks for making me giggle, Zo. I'll try to continue doing so while I take my night meds.
(can you tell I put them off...? ])This "psycho babbles" and obviously can't stop! (grin)
-Drexxie
To others who take stimulants at bedtime, I'd love to hear what you have experienced in regards to taking these pills en masse, or at bed time.
Tell me I'm in good company... please write! (smile)> I am green with envy. . .Tho Dex does improve my quality of sleep, taken in the morning, I still have to add a little lorazepam to *fall* asleep.
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> Zo
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