Posted by Bradley on March 21, 2001, at 14:10:13
In reply to Looking for answers, posted by Snuffy on March 21, 2001, at 12:58:48
I believe many of us have these feelings, or lack of feelings that we can't find adequate treatment for. That is the state of treatment now, inadequate. I keep trying different things, with little improvement. I am certain my underlying problem is a deficiency in my endocrine system. Beyond hypothyroid disorders, the understanding of how problems in the endocrine system cause mood disorders is poorly understood. One can only keep trying treatments that might help. Maybe soon breakthroughs in understanding the endocrine system will occur. Best wishes. Bradley
> I had lived my whole life dealing with severe paranoia, depression, low self esteem and other feelings to numerous to list here. I thought all of this was normal ... that everyone had to deal with the same feelings. About seven years ago my family MD started me on Zoloft. Thru trial and error I ended up at a shrink who changed me to 60 mg of Prozac per day and a large dose of trazodone (spelling?) nightly. After six weeks it worked wonders. It was like a light was turned on. However, over time my depression and anxiety started to build and build and so did the Prozac. When it got to 100 mg/day of Prozac I started to feel like I was in a daze (not to mention no sex drive) and wanted to get off Prozac. I suffered a severe relapse into depression and paranoia after changing from Prozac to Wellbutrin so my meds were changed again. To make a very long story short, I am now taking 60 mg of Prozac, 450 mg of Wellbutrin for depression and 150 mg of Seroquel for my paranoia and audible voices and jumbled radio noises. My paranoia has improved some and my mood is somewhat elevated. My question is "Is this all there is?". I don't have any emotional feelings toward anything including my wife, children, work, people on the street or myself. Don't get me wrong, I love my family very much and I have a dream job that pays very well, it's just I have no passion for anything. I just go thru the motions every day. Although I can't do it, the only thing I want to do is be by myself and sleep. I have built this facade around me that everything is okay and I struggle daily to keep the facade in tact. I am terrified that one day everything is going to crumble and I will be found out for what I really am. This is my first time on this website and I know this is a rambling question but does anyone share these feelings, is there anything to do, Is this all there is?
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