Posted by gib on March 9, 2001, at 22:35:42
Well i'm a stalker and i don't particularly like being one.I'm not the type of stalker who follows a single person around with some kind of love relationship in their mind.I will stalk anybody at randomn whilst they are in my vicinity but once they leave i don't follow.I can stalk people -or as i'd call it make them feel extremely uncomfortable- from across the street or with them barely realising i am there.I can simply look at someone in a certain way which worries people or makes them notice me as a very weird individual indeed.
What i know about me :-i have a schizoaffective personality disorder(my mother is schizophrenic but i am not and do not respond to anti psychotic medication),depression for which i take anti depressants i may try aurorix next month (AD's do help me),i stalk people but not in the way its portrayed on television.I am very ill, i've suffered like this for 11 years now,i'm 29 now and i don't want to take much more of the misery. I have seen psychiatrists ,therapists,psychologists, i've done CBT,group therapy,stress management,you name it i've done it and it didn't work.
I've never had a job,never had a partner,have no friends, in short i have no life at all and i've never had one.
So if someone doesn't explain to me what is going on in my head i may as well go and kill myself now.
I need to know who i am ? what i am ? how i get better ?
Please help me.
poster:gib
thread:56082
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