Posted by Laura on September 13, 1999, at 18:46:23
OK, so its soon time for my prescription refill again, and like I always do, am wondering if I should switch to something else besides anafranil for my OCD and depression. I wouldn't say anafranil has taken complete control of the OCD, but it helps enormously. Without it, it was like watching a horror movie inside my head all the time, and I am not one for scary movies. I was thinking the devil was in our bathroom register, on the roof, whereever. I would also imagine these bloody scenes, like before walking in to my daughters bedroom, I would picture she would be lying there in a pool of blood when I opened the door. Or my husband, or my brother...it didn't matter. I can imagine accidents so sharp and clear that I actually sit there and plan out funeral plans in my head. Now THATs enough to scare ya! This is also the first time I have ever said (in this case typed) that to anyone, except my doc, so its very embarrassing even though I know noone can see me. I still get these thoughts, but now at least I can ttell myself its the OCD and that I need to cut it out. Without meds it is so real, I was actually afraid to go into our bathroom alone at night because I was sure the devil was going to be looking up at me. Lord help us crazy folks, huh? Well, now that you have a little background on me, back to my original ?. Does anyone out there have any recommendations for OCD meds that won't cause weight gain as much as anafranil, and won't kill the sex drive? (thats another story for another day). My doc is really good at taking my suggestions, and if I find another med I think he would be willing to let me try it, as long as it would not harm me. Then comes trying to withdraw from anafranil again...I think that was the very 1st ? I asked on this site, and now I check in here all the time. Thanx again to you people out there...I can tell you things I certainly wouldn't share with my mom!!
poster:Laura
thread:11529
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