Posted by Ian on September 5, 1999, at 5:30:06
I was put on dothiepin (used in UK parent drug is amitriptyline) involuntarily aged thirteen when I was v. miserable at school. Since then I feel have been different in my emotional self, the 'changes ' could be argued to be of repressed psychological origin but intuitively I feel some thing more permanent has happened. Changes I've noticed are
1. Tensions don't come out in tears or anger they just stagnate in the front of my head and I fruitlessly try to argue them away.
2 I dont feel the real blueness of depression but conversely I'm not enthused to the same degree about anything in life and a depth of wonderment has been lost.
3. Yawning seems unsatisfactory and I feel like I'm never quite finishing one off.
4 The tingle that shoots down ones spine when a dramatic piece of music is heard, say the first few bars of Beethoven's fifth has not occurred with me since then although I can still get goosebumps.This may all sound a little bit crazy, but after reading about amitriptyline causing bouts of yawning and clomipramine rarely causing instant orgasms in women when they inadvertently yawn, it doesn't seem so far fetched. I suppose the real contentious point is I feel that the changes in me are permanent and its been over ten years now since I took the course and I'm not on anything else. Not surprisingly I'm a bit anti pyschopharm
I'd be interested to know if anyone has had any similar experiences ( or rather lack of )Ian
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