Posted by Erin on July 31, 1999, at 15:29:34
I just found out that one of my last unmarried ex-boyfriends is getting married and I feel wretched. I have gradually been increasing my dosage of Serzone and been at the 200 mg mark for the last 10 days. I know I need to give it at least another 2 1/2 weeks before I see some results. God, I just feel so awful- ever since I went through my last major depressive episode every day has been a struggle. I have had to put everything else on hold trying to battle this disease that is consuming my entire life. I'm only 29 and each day that passes seems harder than the last. I keep thinking of how much I am missing, how much is slipping through my fingers, and that my best days are behind me. Somehow I keep this little reserve of hope and I force myself to keep going- to read, to ride my bike, to get up in the morning. I'm sorry to sound so overly dramatic, I just feel like I'm slowly drowning. All I want to feel is alive.
Erin
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